Going for a walk and lost at the door Beating heart but you still can’t breath Loving the song but can’t hear the words Climbing a tree and can’t see the view Speaking aloud but nobody’s heard Meeting with friends but in another room Being held tight and floating away Reading a book but the… Continue reading Dissonance
Tag: Depression
A state of persistent low mood.
Bed by Day
Brightness of day But you see the dark Crave a positive mind Not a contrary heart Lighting a candle Your world is distorted Chances surround you Ideals that are thwarted Comfort under swaths A belly of dread Body is protected It’s all in your head
Self Love
You waited for someone else to show you that you are enough, Convinced yourself that you have no worth . You picked up the clues left by the people you followed, Always going in the wrong direction, trusting in a compass that had broken . If you had loved yourself then love would have found… Continue reading Self Love
Heads & Tails
Heads and Tails My early years were stable, loving and invested but then things happened and what followed was about 25 years of trauma. The bad things just kept coming like a Ninja Warrior course. A couple of years after things had begun to settle down I had my first major depressive episode. It literally… Continue reading Heads & Tails
Elizabeth Sometimes
When I was little, my favourite chapter book was called ‘Charlotte Sometimes’ by Penelope Farmer. It’s a time travel story about a girl who goes to boarding school and every day wakes up alternately in her own time or forty years earlier. So she has to contend with being the new girl in two settings.… Continue reading Elizabeth Sometimes
Learning to Run Again
Learning to Run Again A couple of years ago, during the summer holidays, I was easily running a half marathon distance. I always enjoyed going out for a run and always had a plan for my distances. But for the last year I’ve been finding it impossible to build on anything. Is it because of… Continue reading Learning to Run Again
Me, My Family and Depression
A piece written for Rachel Kelly’s guest blog about living with depression with a young family.
Barbara
Everyone needs a friend like Barbara.
I wish my friends knew….
I wish my friends knew……. (Jun 2015) I wish my friends knew…that it’s scarier for me to talk about feeling suicidal than it is for them to hear about it. (@TBad33) I wish my friends knew…when I hide myself away it’s not because I don’t want to see them, it’s because I want to spare… Continue reading I wish my friends knew….
Is It a Dream or Reality?
Is It a Dream or Reality? (May 2016) It’s funny when I meet up with my friend J, we are both suffering some similar symptoms though we have different illnesses, hazy brain being one of them. We can spend a very entertaining hour in deep conversation, counselling each other and seriously constructing helpful advice, then… Continue reading Is It a Dream or Reality?