Tag: Anxiety

Anxiety is an emotion characterised by an unpleasant state of inner turmoil.

Dissonance

Going for a walk and lost at the door Beating heart but you still can’t breath Loving the song but can’t hear the words Climbing a tree and can’t see the view Speaking aloud but nobody’s heard Meeting with friends but in another room Being held tight and floating away Reading a book but the… Continue reading Dissonance

Bed by Day

Brightness of day  But you see the dark Crave a positive mind Not a contrary heart Lighting a candle Your world is distorted Chances surround you Ideals that are thwarted Comfort under swaths A belly of dread Body is protected It’s all in your  head

Calling a Truce

Calling a Truce (Jan 2019) I’ve never liked confrontation, I’m not a fighter. I wonder now if that’s why I never reached the top of my game in hockey. I’ve always loved learning sports techniques and having recently taken up cricket and learnt to bowl and bat has only confirmed that. I’m determined to do… Continue reading Calling a Truce

Why Do I Run?

Why Do I Run? (May 2017) I run because the Doctor told me to. To manage my depression and anxiety. I started running as a teen to compliment my sports and to lose weight. I ran for solitude and head space. Now I run to feel free. To get away from my own unease and… Continue reading Why Do I Run?

Diagnosed With Bipolar Disorder 2 the Day After My 47th Birthday

Diagnosed With Bipolar Disorder 2 (Nov 2020) It was a shock but not a surprise just as much as it was a relief but also frightening. For 35 years I have been aware of something not quite right lurking within me. It’s taken all that time to discover that the uneasy feeling was being caused by… Continue reading Diagnosed With Bipolar Disorder 2 the Day After My 47th Birthday

My Mission

My Mission (May 2020) Mission – a strongly felt aim, ambition, or calling (source Oxford Dictionary) ‘Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.’ Desiderata by Max Ehrmann I am on a mission, I’m… Continue reading My Mission

Talk to Someone

Feeling like there is something wrong or that you don’t quite fit in is a common symptom of depression. When it falls alongside other physical or mental symptoms it should be a clear indicator that an illness is there.  Looking back now I find it unbelievable that I was never diagnosed with depression as a… Continue reading Talk to Someone